It has been over a month since I have posted anything. My silence has been voluntary... the result of introducing chaos into my life. It has been one of those spans of time (of which I seem to have many the last year), where you turn everything upside down and inside out, and then wonder if there will ever be order that comes from the midst of this chaos you have created!
Chaos generally has multiple themes swirling around in its sphere. One of those themes is usually change. In fact, change is what often starts the entire tornado effect. Change is then a catalyst for other themes... And pretty soon, if one is not careful - chaos has ensued. I think that is where I have been!
- I changed jobs. This was a needed change. I needed to find my soul, my passion, my love for each day again. I had lost bits and pieces, no, entire chunks of myself at this last job. So this was a worthwhile change.
- I also started a side business with friends - something I greatly enjoy! We "create" beauty out of things that have been cast away. I love this. In fact, I wish I could do this full time! But this too has it's own special types of chaos.
- I bought a motorcycle again! It is going to live in another state right now to allow me to travel to it and take breaks, seeing a different part of the world with a dear old friend! Adventure at it's finest!
None of these are bad things. One of the things that will definitely happen from this chaos, is that I will eventually emerge from the midst of the whirling pieces and parts. I have started contemplating that earnestly. Will I like this changed me? A me that is not defined by my job? A me that looks for other things to do and other topics of conversation than my work? Will it be a better or worse version of the person preceding the chaos and change?
Reinvention has been a theme in my life. Out of this chaos will emerge a reinvented me. The nice thing is, this cycle can happen again and again!