Another weekend has arrived... But the news from the last 48 hours has both dampened my spirits and angered my soul. The level of irresponsibility across the nation with the people of our nation as well as our elected leaders is frightful. The callousness to the need to preserve life, and the willingness to sacrifice untold numbers is beyond scary to me.
And I know I am not just "saying that". I had the worst night of sleep I have had since this thing started. I had covid dreams all night long. I would wake up for a few minutes, re-arrange my pillows, close my eyes, and my brain would just go right back to it with a different twist. When that happens, I know my brain is on overload trying to make sense of things and trying to figure out "the answer". That is how my brain operates.
Since it was on my mind when I woke up, I turned on CNN to catch the latest news. Well that was a bad idea. There is really no good news right now. Nothing that is uplifting to my spirit and soul. Nothing that makes me feel more positive about the direction we are heading. Nothing that provides hope in a time of great despair. So turned that S%*! off.
The way that I fight these types of personal demons is to create... to be productive... to find purpose. And that is what I will do this weekend. I am not much of one to wallow in despair and allow depression to set in too far. I will create something, fix something, or read something interesting. I will strive to find what I need to do to Live Sincerely today.
I did finish my first puzzle last night. I have the puzzle from hell on the opposite end of the table. So far I have connected two pieces. Really. In 3 weeks. It is a photomosaic and I apparently need new glasses as I cannot see the pieces well enough to do this puzzle. Moving my office light to the game room so I can see. Maybe that will help.
I look forward to this ending, even if life looks a little different when it does. I look forward to visits with my friends and family. I look forward to resuming travel and seeing the world - experiencing other cultures, and foods, and the unique customs of the people there. My bucket list may be growing as I have more time to look and read and learn. I most of all look forward to getting back to the ocean and diving... my love affair with that is not fading - it just grows stronger.
Have a great weekend friends.
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