Four weeks of working from home now.
Almost three weeks of Shelter in Place.
Has it really ONLY been that long??
It seems impossible because that is not how it FEELS.
Today we will pass 1.7 million cases and will probably reach 110K deaths world wide. I am sure you know the numbers, but I just want to remind myself for when I look back on this in a few years. I have all but quit watching the news on a daily basis. I have CNN on sometimes while I play a game and just watch the ticker run. Yesterday was the first day in awhile I spent any significant time reading my news feed on Facebook. But I have quit taking that in as well. There is so much information flying through the airwaves, and no way for a normal person to filter truth, from partial truth, from dead wrong information that is believed as truth because so many people have said it.
For me, I am continuing to do what we are asked to do - staying at home, wearing something over my face when in public places where contact ranges are surely closer, like the grocery. (I look ridiculous by the way -- not quite as bad as the woman showing how to twist a pair of underwear and wear if over your nose and head - but still bad.) And practicing Social Distancing. Damn Social Distancing.
This will definitely register as my least favorite part when this is over. Some of the effects of this I will definitely be OK with: My house is clean, and I have actually enjoyed cooking and baking again. That I will continue doing with any luck at all!
I sat yesterday pondering the world of our future. Again. Because the longer this goes on, the more that vision changes. My beliefs and emotions regarding it feel like they are on a roller coaster - one that I want to get off of! I remind myself that my feelings are not to be judged, and neither are yours. How I feel about something is just a fact. It has no inherent rightness or wrongness. It is my truth at that moment in time. What I do with that feeling, how I choose to act on it - that is where we start having accountability. So while I have fears, some days, and while I feel irrational about the "what next" questions, I try to keep that to myself. Not because I am hiding it or trying to pretend I am stronger than everyone else. That is not it at all. I do it because I believe it is more helpful to vocalize the positive, to pass on the interesting, the funny, and maybe even the thought provoking things that come my way.
Now, I need some consecutive days with no rain, and a little bit of sunshine. I see a small pond out my back door. The birds will be bathing in it soon. I see the sun is trying to show it's face. So maybe a bike ride is in my near future!! Have a great Sunday world!
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